The Big Mind F**K

My mind probably looks a little like this;

and I don't do drugs but within the last 8 years I seem to have lost so much cranial function it is insane.

I make coffee and forget to drink it, I have left my keys in odd places, lost large amounts of money, and forgotten about many important dates.

Early onset Alzheimers?? Most likely not! Stress does many things and then your body sends warning signals out to inform you that the stress is too much. It could be memory loss, pain or even headaches. Your body has to cope as well and that is how it deals with Stress.

Does any of that rubbish help me?? Nope! I know I am way too stressed but I do not know what I am supposed to do to relieve that stress.
My stress will not go away but I can start trying to alleviate some daily stressors and take some time to relax at the end of the day! 

My memory isn't the only thing suffering though. Emotionally I can not handle ANY extra added stressors. If I lose my keys, I am a blubbering mess. If I can't find the hairbrush, tears.... Ugh. Last night I went into the living room to lay on the couch and tripped on a glass full of water and it spilled all over the floor. What do I do?? Stomp my feet and tears!!! Ugh.. This woman needs to find a human dehydrator cause I am sick of tears!

So, emotionally I think I am shot but we must go on and continue going! I will be okay, I just have to reground myself and find ways to cope with the insanity and the constant stress that comes with parenting2 special needs boys, one being medically fragile as well and two teen/preteen girls !
People wonder why my hair is almost white!!! Every strand tells a story!