Tuesday, October 4, 2016

Why Living Day to Day Is Hard

I always try to live each day as a new fresh start. Another day of adventure and experience. I try so hard not to let the thoughts of what if creep into my thoughts. It isn't as easy as it sounds. I usually end my day saying tomorrow is another day. I try to allow my children to experience life without restraint because I know time is precious. Lately however, I find myself stuck.

I know in my heart that those wonderful moments of adventure are going to turn into several days of agony for my little man. For example, yesterday evening I met up with my sister for a walk on the rail trail. I thought it would be great t o get them out in the fresh fall air. I asked Charlie several times how he was doing and he insisted he was fine. The minute we got in the car he was crying his legs hurt. Then everything hurt. Today, he stayed in bed till noon and now lays on the couch. Exhaustion sets in and keeps him for days. It was only about a half hour walk.

This whole situation sucks and no words of encouragement can change that. I just have to keep reminding myself of the smiles and strength this little man holds. He can do this and I will stand by him and help him.